What do I live for ?

People want to live as long as they could. But to some people, it is hard to live. People don't seem to understand whenever there's a report about suicide.

They just say committing suicide is just a coward act. Why are they so coward to hurt themselves? Actually, I don't have courage to be hurt. But at times, I'm so depressed that I don't want to live. Living in a world where people don't understand the other people like me is hard. What do I live for?

To keep staying optimistic, I just say to myself that this life will end someday so I don't have to end it early. But I just want to have at least one cause to live for so that I go for it. 

Until now, I have dreamt of getting into the college. 

Now, I have to set another goal to go. Still I'm at a lose for what I really like.